hiding under the cover. you can't see me!

I have been feeling a bit stressed lately, and I feel that my personal relationships are hurting from it. I am having trouble getting over the little things and blowing up at anyone. I think that it is just that I feel that a lot of things are getting out of my hands and I can't reclaim them.

Mark is still holding a grudge for what he feels was an unnecessary outburst. I threw fruit at him after he messed up again. not just any kind of fruit, but rotten bananas and grapes. they were the closest thing to me at the time of explosion. In my defence, they were better than apples and oranges. these were just mushy. I was just so angry and hurt and words failed me. Hard to see me without words, but it happened! the fruit hit the Mark (literally)

Things will get better. God is using this hard time as a stepping stool for something better in the future.

I have such a sense of "whatever" at the moment. the fruit will have to be cleaned off the Mark though.

Wedding at Tubac

What a romantic time we had at our friends wedding this last Saturday. It was a nice chance for my husband and I to drop the kids off and spend an evening as adults. Talking with adults about things other than kids. It was a beautiful service and the dinner afterward was yummy!

These are a few pictures of me and Mark at the wedding. Oh, and one of the awesome new shoes I bought of for the event. I love them!!!

I really enjoyed the event, and most of all, spending time with my boo.

Dinner for 8

OK, so I survived my first dinner for 8 hosting. It was actually a lot of fun! We cooked chicken and burgers and everyone else brought over side dishes and it was a great time of talking, eating, and watching kids go crazy.

My husband thought I would be all stressed out because I usually am when it comes to people coming over, but I think I was wonderful.(if I do say so myself)

My mother in law helped me in seeing that it is not how clean my house is but the fellowship that happens. It is silly to think people will judge me because of a messy house. I also did not want to spend all my time running around like a crazy person cleaning my house for people. Be Mary, not Martha.

Tomorrow we head to Tubac for a great stay at a glof resort and a wedding. I bought a beautiful dress with cute little shoes (if you can say any size 9 shoe is little) It will be nice to get away and just look at my husband without kids running around. It has been too long.

flowers

I love spring! The wonderful weather, the birds singing, and getting to play in the dirt in my garden!

I pulled weeds for over 2 hours, and there is still so many more. I keep thinking of the veggie tales movie as I am pulling them, and find I am humming the rumor weed song to myself. Of course I am doing all the funny voices of the characters as I joyfully pull them suckers out!

It is so true though, rumors can spread like weeds. I am so at fault and need to work in this area. It is so easy to talk about something awful you heard of someone else, but who does it really hurt in the long run? I think it ends up hurting the person who is gossiping, because people lose trust in that person. Why would you share something with someone who just told you the secret of another?

I guess it is something I need to work on as a personal goal.